I'm not as happy as the smiley, i'm sad, i'm angry! But what to do?! Since my life is so shit already, and i've already said, they're just not gonna stop! What's the point pleasing others when they don't appreciate it and even take it for granted? What's the point carrying on pleasing them and you take in all shits? What's the point making others happy and you're not happy at all? I always believe and thinks that, seeing others/everyone happy, i will be happy. But i'm wrong, i try to please someone, try my best to make them happy, indeed they are! But i'm not, maybe i am, for just that moment, seeing them smile. I'm seriously seriously seriously fucking tired of all these! I'm always saying this, yet i tell myself to tolerate, persevere and move on with life. I did it, not once, but many times. Keeping everything inside, hurting myself by laughing out loud everyday, yet crying hard inside. If all these shits are not gonna stop, i may give up soon. I can't hold on any longer. I told myself, not gonna care anymore, i shouldn't be! But if i don't, i'm shit in peoples eyes! Yes, thinking of others first is what i think that it's perfect, but not anymore. You affected my life, my studies, my future, my mood, my thinking! I'm going nuts soon.

I JUST NEED SOME CHILL PILLS AND MORE HAPPY PILLS!

Posted by Rebecca at 1:08 AM

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