Thursday, May 13, 2010
The most awful day ♥♥
The third day, and the worst, i'm still suffering in hell! Feeling shit early in the morning, no fail, cried before sleep and when woke. Crying in the morning is the worst part ever in life! That gives you a bad start. Having all pain inside, causing chest pain and vomit nothing. That's really awful, just like not being able to vent out everything you're having inside your mind. I dreamt of him again. I don't want to be like this anymore, i'm really really tired and sick of this! Fine, i can't have you back, i don't want you anymore, i just want back my craziness, my smile and my laughters! I WANT MY LIFE! It's killing me inside, laughing out loud with your friends when you're actually feeling pain and shit inside. What for torturing myself?! If he can do that so easily, so do you. If he can give up so easily, so do you. If he can get over it so easily, so do you. Outof the sudden, i miss him so much, but i have to tell myself not to think of him. Three consecutive days, my eyes are not resting at all, crying all day, sleeping late at night and waking up early in the morning, let them rest, they are seriously tired. Acting fine, don't want to let friends worry and affect them, it's torture. Family caring for you, asking you what happen, yet you can't tell them anything, it's torture. Not eating and sleeping well, falling sick, it's torture. People trying their best to do everything to help, yet you gave them nothing. Does all this worthwhile? You're just making yourself suffer, making everyone around you suffer! Be strong, get over it and move on with your life! I CAN DO IT! :D :D :D加油，林嘉欣！
JIAYOU, REBECCA LAM JIA XIN!
Labels: Will i dream of you again tonight
Posted by Rebecca at 10:05 PM
