Thursday, May 13, 2010
I need, I desire ♥♥
Posted by Rebecca at 1:13 AM
The second day without him, you dreamt of him, you cried when you woke. This is the time, when you will know, how much your friends loves you, how much your family cares for you, how deep you had fell, how sucks it can be, how shitty your life is. But you will never know, what's gonna happen next, issit good or bad, you won't know. But all you know now, is just shits happening. You've moved on, another shit came to you, but you don't give up, keep moving on, yet shits are still going towards you. All you can do is to move on. The one you love, care and need the most, chose to give you shit, throw you into a deep hole and leave you alone. You felt lost, you don't know what to do, you don't want him to leave, yet you have no choice but only cry. Crying the whole day, making your eyes go blind, cry when you wake up, cry when you're washing your face, cry when you're on the way to school, cry when you see your friends, cry when you'e having lessons, cry when you're on the way back home, cry when you're alone, cry when you're bathing, cry before you going to sleep, this is all you can do. But this is the time that you'll notice, you're making everyone worry, you'll hurt them. Family asking what had happened, asking what's on your mind, asking whether you're fine. Bestfriends care for you, they want to make sure you're fine, they just want to keep you accompany. Friends you've just made, wants to cheer you up, telling you this is life. Classmates that you didn't communicate with at all, don't understand you at all, don't know what's going on at all, asking whether you're alright, asking you to cheer up. Teacher, wants to make sure you're feeling well. All the things they did, just want you to be happy, be strong and get over it. But what you gave them is always the same, not talking, giving a fake smile, laugh till you wanna cry, telling them how awful you're feeling, yet they ignored it and just want you to know they're always supporting you, they're always there. Not just him can give you a simple love, family and friends can always give that to you whenever you need it.
You asked yourself, how to tell whether you're strong enough to let it go and move on with your life?
And you told yourself, not hiding anymore, not crying anymore, when you see him, you're able to smile and say hi to him just like normal friends. This is the perfect answer to tell that you've stood back up to your feet and start afresh with your life.
Labels: What's going on with my life.
Posted by Rebecca at 1:13 AM
